Tuesday, September 12, 2006

OB Apt. was very unsatisfying. I'm home on bedrest, but he said I can get up to do my chores???? What? I really don't think I like this OB. I feel a lack of communication from him or a disconnect. Don't feel like he listens or I'm not sure, I can't explain.

He did a very gentle exam with the speculum that hurt like hell! He said the discharge looked normal, and didn't swab it. So I guess no infection, but I can't help but wonder. He did do a vaginal u/s and my cervix is nice and long (a 4) so that was very reassuring. I'm just not sure how much to rest. He said "you need to do more bedrest". I was thinking no one told me to do any bedrest. So I asked him to define bedrest. Then he said just take it easy, don't go running around, no trips etc. Well, duh, I've pretty much been doing that. He said I could be helper in Matthew's class tomorrow, but we decided that he doesn't understand just how physical that can be, so craig is going to go tomorrow. I do kinda wish we had gone into the hospital on Sat. night so the contractions could have been monitored and the doc could see how strong they were. If it happens again, we will go in.

I'm not sure how we are going to manage if I don't do stuff and its hard not to with the nebulous instructions I have been given. I mentioned gettng a part time nanny and dh doesn't think we can afford it. His current plan is to start working on "Zurich time". That would allowe him to connect wth people in Europe and have a block of time to work when we are all sleeping.
I'm going bck to rest now. Last night just being on the computer made me contract.
My wish may come true

On my way to the OB. Think he may tell me I'm on bedrest. I had many, many contractions over the weekend including a miserable car ride home from the inlaws on Sat. night when the contractions were 2 minutes apart and I couldn't talk through them. Craig argued that the car was not the place to stop them and rather than go to the hospital we should get home, I should empty my bladder and lay on the couch. I wasn't sure this was the right thing to do, but I did it and they did ease up. They were less intense and less frequent to the point that I was able to fall asleep. I slept most of Sunday afternoon and Sunday night too. Now whenever I do anything, I start to cramp and contract again. So, I called the nurse yesterday.

She said to "take it easy" and told me to come in today to take the 3 hour glucose test (I always fail the one hour) and to see my doc. I think I may have an infection and that is what is causing all the contractions. I hope my doc takes me seriously today. I just don't feel "right" if you know what I mean.

Craig all ready started telling people I was on bed rest yesterday. We'll see what the doc says today. I'm not sure how he will hold up under the strain of a full time job and caring for two boys. we'll see....

Friday, September 08, 2006

Wishing For Bed Rest

Not really, butI'm soooo tired! and EVERYTHING hurts. My belly hurts all the time, the pubic symphysis pain is a killer, its getting harder to breathe, my back hurts ALL the time, my joints are loosening so my arthritis is acting up and the knee I wrecked before M was born is aching again. I'm so paranoid every time I have a contraction because I'm afraid the previa will begin bleeding etc, etc.

If I worked outside the home, I might ask doc to write me out of work, but as a SAHM, who do I give the letter to? lol. I don't really need bedrest, I know, just a break. So many women with previa are on bedrest, but my docs don't believe in it unless I have a significant bleed. I obviously don't want to bleed, and yet I'm so sick of worrying and wondering about it happening that part of me just wants to get it over with. 75% of women with previa do bleed, but I could very well be in the 25% that doesn't.

I'm really fairly cautious with my contractions. to which Fertile Friend said yesterday, "aren't you just having braxton hicks? You should be having them by now, I'm sure there is nothing to worry about. Then again you and Craig always worry about them much more than we do". Um ok, whatever. Thanks for feeding my "I don't want to be melodramatic or a hypochondriac paranoia!"

GRRRR!

Now I need to get out of here before the cleaning woman shows because I'm embarrassed by my pit of a house. Also need to get M's blood drawn and do about a million errands. sigh.....

Carol Anne

P.S. I know it will all be worth it in the end and thats what I keep focusing on. BUT if I develop amnesia and start thinking about #4 in a year or so, someone smack me please!